Sunday, July 28, 2013

Difference in Love and Idea of Love

I have seen this kind of stories many times in my life and definitely it took a little time to understand the facts and reality of these stories.

Let me tell you a little story, there was a guy and a girl who used to like each other. I just want a special mention here that liking each other may not be in physical terms, reality is our mental interpretation and if mentally you feel connected means, it is a relation, whether they are in same city or far distant, both are relation. They had so many things in common to understand, interpret and respond to each other. There was a a very good silent communication between them, which was untold but it was well understood. As light dispels darkness without a sound, they had a fearless exchange of love without any physical expression. Oh yes it was beautiful.

They were living in different cities. So they were on facebook, gmail, watsapp, airtel, reliance, vodafone etc. and all the means was to connect each other, live with each other. Love has a beautiful magnetic chemistry of spending almost all of your time with your lover, whether they talk nonsense, meaningless or even repetitive, or even when they are silent, they would want to be close, they would want to feel the closeness, they would want to feel a sort mental integration of their existence, and that is why it is substantial and even divine, because only here you want to loose yourself.

Slowly guy was evolving like a sun and girl was growing her wings in the sky of their love, very soon they were flying. One day guy says, I want to meet you, I want to see you, I want to just feel all that reality in your eyes without any words, any voice, any mental interpretation, let it be instinct, let it be just being. And yes this is called evolution, the moment you start creating a relationship, you must check two boundary parameters, whether it is an idea, or it is a need. 

Over the time, guy goes through misery because girl never shows courage to meet... and stories decays in time.

In the many other stories, some will pretend to face the reality, some will buy time, some (even after staying in the same city) they will figure out moral stories to hide them self, some will create sequence of event to happen, then they will face, it's all bakwas, a simple lack of courage and proof that it's not love, it's idea of love. Cowards can never be lovers, lovers will show the willingness to jump into even infinity.

An Idea of love is not love, you just get the feeling of love, it is not love, a self delusion created by our mental web. And I have seen many stories where it was not love, it was just an idea of love. Thoughts (and so ideas) carries energy, it has power to change your psychology, it has power to convince, make you feel and even change your perception. But you should be little careful with such relations, its a sheer waste of time. In fact it will take you away from real love, because you'll become little obsessed with idea of love, love will no longer impress you. It's like many alcoholic no longer enjoy the juice. And I have seen intellectuals to trap a lot in such false relations, Do not get addicted to such ideas, cut it, drop it, and trust me you are not going to loose anything. Living in false reality is worst than living in painful reality, because once you accept the pain, you'll start seeking naturally in life that what is that something which is beyond the pain and misery. 

The simple difference between love and idea of love is, Love will have courage, a positvity, a self evolved creativity to take you on higher sky. Idea of love, will have pleasure, a consolation that you are not alone, a companionship of intellectual and emotional communication, but at the close watch, in such pleasure, there will be a lack of contentment, and bingo !!! that is a mental vicious cycle you are getting trapped into, break it, come out of it and move on. As per your quality, you'll be rewarded in time, because thirst can bring the well to you. And trust me, it happens, just keep your umbrella open, sun can fall anytime...

There is a second aspect in love, need based love is also waste of time, will talk about it later. 

Love you all :)

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Food is not only for body, its for consciousness

Our Earth and Water element of body accepts the physical food, our fire element digests the food which create energy and chemicals for functioning
of body and brain, air element(the mental body) digests that physical energy and create impression and memory and alters the thought and cognitive
process, space element(the chitta) digests all that impression and creates a state which alters our consciousness.

Food is not only what we eat and digest, food reaches to multiple layers, it creates a sequence of event from form to consciousness.

I Love Food :)

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Food means Self Love

I have seen many faces, expressions and forms of contentment. But trust me Food is one of the finest content one can ever have. Food is not just physically present, taste-worthy, and mood making source of object. Food carries force, energy and consciousness in it. Food alters your body, mind and soul. A food does not only fill your stomach, it makes your brain function, it changes your hormonal equation to make your sad, happy, excited or erotic, it gives you internal emotional satisfaction of self-love. Respect food, show gratitude to it and love the entire process of cooking and eating. It blessing to humanity that we can cook and eat. It's definitely an art, the cooking and the eating.

Let me tell you what I feel for you

Let me tell you what I feel for you. I feel for you is the highest sense of contempt, in fact you are my contempt. Whether I love you or not? Actually speaking it is a silly, irrelevant and redundant question. I want you as anyone want the food, the stimulation as insatiable hunger of life, for exactly the same reason and purpose. And you are someone which ends my search, because you are the search, you are the journey and you are the aim. I need you. And I know you are as vile animal as me. We stand with our clear distinctions in our character, we are great independent beings, but all the freaking greatness is not even 1% exchangeable to our obscenity of talent at the animal sense of pleasure. I want no self-deception about it. It's just about self-satisfaction.


Tuesday, July 02, 2013

They break what they need the most

Insight : For a guy, Love is none of these, a fiction, a training algorithm, a financial planning, a family projection. Most of them either do or don't. Those who don't for them also its none of the above and for those who do... you must respect, you must respect the insanity, the imagination and the consecutive evolution of it. But it requires little bit of vision which is usually invisible or non-perceptible, still Love must be worshiped by far, comparing to any other damn thing in your life because that quality is beyond measurement and that possibility of change in you is infinite. But ironically often it is missed and end up in breaking his heart. They break what they need the most. Strange !!!

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Man with an Ox and Baja

In the early morning (It was 10AM, Fine! It was not so early) I was checking my server stats. and I hear a music of some organ pipe pooooo poo pooooooo... and music elongates for a while, somehow it was very pleasing. After the music stops, I rush to my terrace to check the source of music and I spend 10-15 minutes to observe the source and listened more music.

It was an urban poor man and in his company there was a colorful ox, very well dressed, topped with some metallic Jewelery. Both (man and the ox) were going to every door step, Man was carrying a "long Baja" and bajaoing in front of every house in the expectation of getting some money. But he went almost 5-6 doors in that 10 minute and no body came out and really no body gave him anything. Still I didn't find any kind of grumbling or complain, he was peaceful and he was moving to another door step.

First thought, I wanted to thank my boss for giving me Job and Salary.

Second thought, Is this a begging? No. earning money and wealth is very important but not so fundamental vision of life. The more important thing is to learn, not just earn. He was an artist and we should respect an artist who is devoting his timein art not just in making money.

PS : The image is not the real photo, its just a symbol to tell you the story.

Saturday, March 02, 2013

Darkness is beautiful

Darkness is beautiful. 

It has the ability to make things invisible without any destruction. I am not denying the fact that invisibility and existence are not just measured by senses, they should be understood as experience. But darkness create a beautiful opportunity of training the self that it does not exist. It envelopes almost everything, it envelopes like a black hole, it becomes like everything is a black fluid and nothing holds in your hand, even your hand is not yours, and your legs, and your mind, and your emotions.... and there a point comes that everything is just darkness, even the self. 

Darkness is beautiful :)

I am the freak

Sometime, when I look through my dark visions, I suspect the authenticity of my desires, my creativity, even my emptiness... It all doesn't belong to me, I have just tagged them. Why not live naked sometime, why not live with salt on wound, why not just leave the surface of misery open...I know I am the freak, the jackass and the mad soul.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Possessiveness is an art

Possessiveness is an art. Everything which requires the sense of balance is an art. Possessiveness is about balancing the hold and release of a relation, its about balancing the relational joy and misery, its about balancing self stimulation and self decay, It's an art of journey from indulgence to austerity.

Yes its very meaningful to fall in love, become possessive, but that's the beginning of the story only which is always beautiful and after certain point of time we do suffer the pain out of this possessiveness, and we start feeling that love is vanishing. No, Its like the other chapter of possessiveness is not been learnt, that is dissolving the self. When you start dissolving yourself and you let your lover fly in the sky, love start taking the fresh breath and it will never die, it will only bring new layers and perspectives, and its really amazing to evolve the Love. Possessiveness gives you surface to evolve yourself and your lover both via simple natural process of love.

Possessiveness is an art of observing the point of self and no-self.

Wish you all to fall in love, become possessive and then release the self into infinity.

Love. Nishal.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Happiness is subjective experience

Happiness is subjective experience. You think when Jesus was crucified he was happy, no way. He must have had a hard time, the complete physical torture would have screwed his happiness. And you think when I stare the darkness alone in the black night, for few moment I even forget to breath and I totally loose the idea of what happens to my body, trust me that experience is not happy. But being happy is not the final thing it is simply overrated by fraud people. And somehow I am peaceful by being not happy :)

Bliss is a state which alters the observation of any experience.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Missing someone

Missing someone brings the state of helplessness, a misery, an isolation. It creates a very intense thirst for which we can plan to fight till death to achieve it. But the glory of missing someone lies in the intensity of thirst because out of that thirst there is an originating vision which creates a difference of observation of a visionary and ordinary. You may be willing to follow the path of what heart says which will be internally negotiated by misery of  emotional emptiness. And you may choose to observe the deeper essence of misery to see the emptiness within your naked soul, and that leads to and eternal knowledge of knowing the nature of inevitability and know the true destiny of self. May this emptiness never dies. 

Ameen !!!! 

Saturday, January 05, 2013


Flying is a freedom but It is not like just another dimension of ability and freedom. It gives inevitable ability to change the static energy of self associated with Earth. Many a time we really get stuck with the inertia of Earth and we feel that we are incapable of changing the situation. But if you know the art of flying no such inertia will be able to stop you. You can say 1,2,3 zooooo and fly and fly and fly, you can have tea in a different city with different people and still not feeling good, again fly and sleep in a different city. The vibration of Earth will have no impact on you without using any kind of functional decision, you can do it as like breath, instinct or reflex. It is very different type of freedom. Amazing....